Ace3 won our match. We didn't complete it. I was nervous as usual. My hands were cold as usual, and so I wasn't doing well. Usually I would settle into things but this time it didn't happen. We started with the green races and I think it just completely threw me because I'm not used to them. I was about to fire a missile and realised I couldn't. Every race I was just fighting my instinct to fire and it made it impossible for me to concentrate. I completely messed up the first race. My hands felt totally frozen at that point. I couldn't concentrate at all after that. I won the first weapons race but the next went very badly and I'm afraid I quit the race. As soon as I stopped I saw how much my hands were shaking and realised how ridiculous it was to even try and race like that.

I'm really annoyed with myself, because I practised quite hard in the run up and then just got completely caught off guard.

Sorry to Ace3 that I sucked so badly and quit, and generally sorry that I've let everyone down.

I'm not sure there's any point in me playing in the HD Cup now. If I can't get around these nerves then I'm not going to do any justice to myself or anyone involved. Bad times!