Surprise surprise PACER delayed till end of Septmber .

[blackwiggle]

Never mind the game, I'm sorry to hear about your bad news!
All the best to you 😔

Cheers guys😊
I should run a pole asking what will be released first , me or Pacer LoL.

I must be a age thing , IÂ’m 60, as my Dr ordered some blood tests about 2 Years ago that said that I was in the range for it, but I brushed it off and never followed up with a specific prostrate test ( only stupid reason is I absolutely hate blood tests, I nearly pass out every time, itÂ’s not a needle thing)

They gave me two shots in the gut to lower my testosterone and all the pain went within a day, which was good.
Still got a bone scan test in a couple of hours and some biopsy due whenever, wish they would tell me as I think that will be the last test.
Then I suppose theyÂ’ll work out a treatment plan.
I got some good news from the bone guy yesterday about my leg - hip saying than with drugs and radiotherapy the bone - damage should repair, which tbh has been my biggest concern, as I didnÂ’t fancy myself as needing crutches or like to get around, I was told jogging is no longer on the cards but ok to cycle 😀
IÂ’ve just been looking up medical marijuana in Australia to cover nausea from treatment( IÂ’ve seen first hand how bad that can be ),itÂ’s in very early stages of availability here, and looks stupidly expensive Aus $150-$300 per month for certified and consistent strength oil.
I suppose there is always a more unreliable source🤪 but IÂ’d rather not smoke it tbh as smoking it doesnÂ’t last as long as ingested .

Very early days with this, IÂ’m optimistic as IÂ’m feeling better already, I suppose IÂ’ll have to wait and see just how bad it is and just what prospects I have.
**** happens 🤔
If your hitting 50 ish get your Dr to do a blood test for it, and follow up unlike me, if they catch it early you should have no problem treatment, unlike me leaving it go find the leaky tap has flooded the basement situation 😂

[Concealed Sequence]

I'm glad to hear your bit of good news and that you're being positive about it. Thinking of you mate 🤞👍

[Sausehuhn]

All the best, mate. Hang in there!

[blackwiggle]

Thanks.

I've been in hospital for a week and just got discharged with my papers.

After reading them it seems things are much much worse than I thought.

I'm basically riddled with cancer in my spine, head, ribs, hips, pretty much everywhere according to this report, talk about a shock

I start Radiotherapy next Thursday for 5 treatments, and have to visit oncology to sort when I start Chemo the same day.....for how long?
Will Chemo help ?......if I posted my discharge papers and you read them you would probably say No.

The bit that worries me the most now is the report from the MRI scan of my skull [I spend 4.5 hours having a full body MRI scan, scary], it basically says I'm likely to suffer more issues like I have of lost hearing, eyesight, speech over time.
And seeing how progressed it is, that might not be far off as it's already effected me.

I don't want to go out a blind, dribbling, speechless vegetable.
I won't know what the results of any treatment will be until Feb 2021, but I am no longer optimistic, and neither is my sister in-law who knows about this stuff, and broke it to my brother when I sent her a copy of the report....shell shocked I think you could say he was.

Time for me to quickly make up a Bucket list it would seem.

It's been nice racing and talking with the forum members over the years, I hope to do a bit more of it before I kick the bucket.
I just thought I'd mention it if you suddenly never hear from me again, at least you will have known what had happened to me.

I might get a AG racing suit made and be cremated with my NegCon in my hands and wearing my VR helmet LOL.
Best way for a Wipeout tragic to go out I think.

As for PACER.......well Microsoft better get their crap together so PACER does get released and I do eventually get to play it.
I'll come back and haunt them if I don't

[eLhabib]

Oh man, that's terrible, I'm at a loss for words...
All the best to you and your family, stay strong, fight back, and try to enjoy every minute of pure life from now on

[blackwiggle]

Thanks habib.

In all honesty, it's not really bothering me.

It bothering me that it's bothering my family more than anything.

Western culture always has a had weird disconnection with death.
It would rather try to scientifically disprove it and try to overcome it, rather than embrace it for it's inevitability

Death is the last part of life, it's not like it's something you can avoid, and I've always been well aware of that since I was a kid traveling around the world with my parents and watching different cultures, sort of like the way Indians look at death, they just don't worry about it because they know there is more than just this perceived momentary mortal existence we have of it.

Were are all light !


EDIT: R8 issued a bit of news regarding the delay on their twitter feed.
https://twitter.com/R8Games
Shouldn't be long now......LOL

[AdHoc]

Sorry to hear, blackwiggle, I don’t know you but your nickname has been a familiarity to me for 14 years (we joined same month, same year) and I’ve enjoyed reading you, and still will.

As eLhabib says, stay strong regardless of what happens. I love that you’re so open and at peace with it, and that you’re letting us know. Fly high

[jimsin]

God, came back here after a very long absence to see if there's any news about the Pacer release, and was very sad to read about your condition Blackwiggle. I remember you very well from back in the Wipeout World Cup back in 2009. Never realised you were older than me, I'm 54 now & thought that I was pushing it a bit for a Wipeout pilot!
Anyway, just logged in to wish you all the best. Whatever else happens you'll always be a Wipeout legend! legend of Wipeout, that's for sure!

[Racingfan]

Damn, i'm very sorry to hear that. Stay strong!

[blackwiggle]

Cheers guys. just had my second radiotheraphy session today, which are painless and easy to do, as you just basically lie there till it's done.
Getting around though has become a real PITA, which I wasn't expecting to happen so quick, hopefully improve over the weekend as I don't need to leave the house.

I got a email from R8 asking about me which was nice.
They offered to put a banner in the game for me, which is pretty cool of them.....even though I have no idea what to choose......some suggestions would help.

Also was told it's Sony holding things up again, mainly due to slackness on their part, R8 are hoping for good news next week, and said release will be before Xmas 2020

They are also going to be sending out reviewers keys quickly, they have 5 days to do that before a embargo comes into play, which is usually two days before the release if I read the info correctly.