Mystic Life in Speed
A Faster Than Angels Story
FTA-MLiS102: The Love of Hate
2* Aüg's* 2*ß2
My name is Jonathan Bovier. Actually by now it is Jonathan von Bovier. Some people think it's a bit odd, but Germany is actually a monarchy in 2212.
It's quite odd with what consistency Europe went through modern history, even in times the whole continent was sunken in war and corruption.
Since 2164 I have been researching in secret with Saki Kojikyofu about magick. We despaired to reach a point where the classical conception of magick would be available to us. Maybe it ceased to exist, or was just made up. The popular voice is pretty clear in a world dominated by technology.
But the concept to manipulate things through mental power seemed legit too us, so we trained on that. But in the end it was science which brought us the tool to channel such powers.
I got to know Saki back in my school days, she was an exchange student from Japan. I was one of the fewest people to share her affinity to such things like magick and the mystic. Yes, she really began to feel much more for me than I did. But that was because I already met Rebecca, who was the only person on earth with a natural right on all my love and feelings.
But I could understand her anger, as I could understand her strong feelings. But I could also understand the strong feelings of Rebecca.
The thing is that I did not know that Kyoko was Saki. How we got into contact?
That was because of the group we all belong to. The "Perpetua Societae" - Eternal Society - is a small group of people working towards eternal life. Through any means, under the condition that no other lifes would be hindred through our work.
It was seen critical that I invited Saki to it again, since she would necessarily be excluded due to her actions. Actually, handling the death of Kyotaka Ishimasu in a research facility was anyway a huge challenge to deal with in a diplomatic way. It is the Electrosphere...
Saki later told me that the whole clash among Shintoist gods was actually not as mystical as I thought it to be. It was very disappointing for me, but she told me that these...beings were AI systems coded to behave this way. Apparently it was a project she did in her spare time at the shrine she inhabitated. I don't know how to interpret all that.
However, the Electrosphere blurred the boundary between the digital and the real world. Back in 2082 it was already pretty shocking when Rebecca got sublimated. She did that on her own though, knowing that she wouldn't overcome age without the same modifications I did to myself. Her attitude was really along the lines of "I got nothing to loose".
The whole phenomenon that Madison's existance was...Saki also admitted that she intentionally began to manipulate Madisons mind, in the hope of harming my own decendants...
And after all this lengthy talk we reached this point...
*slap*
I was immediately disappointed at myslelf that after over two hundred years I actually beat a woman.
Saki gave no response to that, it was rather unnecessary in our condition "I guess I deserved that."
"You mean, you deserve more." I uttered.
Saki giggled in an odd tone "But imagine Rebecca would tell you to f'ck off out of nothing!"
"Almost 200 years and you still don't get what the difference is!" I yelled at her.
She laughed more "I do, I do! But you can understand this feeling, riiiight?"
Silence came from me.
Actually to visualise this scenario in depth...
Rebecca saying these things stone cold and serious too me. No empathy, just the truth.
Washed free of all love, casting away all trust...
ALL THESE SCENARIOS END IN HER DEATH!
...
...But, I know her real feelings. And I am utterly convinced that she feels the exact same way as I do.
Therefore this scenario feels impossible, this awareness escalate any actual reaction I could show then.
But for Saki it was reality.
But for my love, Saki was a threat.
I grabbed Saki by her shoulders and looked deep into her mad eyes.
"I am aware that you possess this conception of love." my voice was clear and calm to my own suprise "It makes me understand why you act this way, despite that I can do nothing but utterly hate you for your actions. But the real tragedy is that all this time you cultivated a lovesick hate for me, instead of forcing yourself to move on."
She chuckled a bit "D-don't you think it is so romantic? To ignore all the h-hardship my love puts me though. O-only to love them mooore?"
It made me think "If I wouldn't think that this love is actually only alive for the hate you began to cultivate out of it, I actually would think so."
She shock herself free "Fool."
"You always taunt me." Saki said "You-"
Then she just looked at me...and began to cry.
"What?" she disappeared.